Nur Natasha

Friday, December 16, 2011

hi :)

may peace be upon you..

you know what? some time i feel like wanna to taubat. I want to solat 5 times a days. i want to know more about my religion. but... i need a support. haishh.. :/

i'm back from jakarta.. bought something for you guys :')

What's on my mind

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Peace be upon you..

I bet no one will be reading these post. I know it gonna be so long. Let see who'll be reading it. Give a inbox at my FB

I'm crying badly. It hurt me badly. Sometime i feel lucky to have a guy who cares for me. I feel safe whenever i'm with him but i feel safer if i'm with my family. i'm just sick and tired of living in these world. how i wish if i could end this life. i know it something stupid to say. -.-"

i dont come with a wealth family. my mother is the only one who is working. she work from morning to night to earn extra income. i'm currently working part time to earn my pocket money. i dont wish to ask mum for money to wear a nice clothing.

i guess i wanna type in malay. my english suck -.-

Tasha facing a family problem tapi tasha tak ingin nak share kepade siape2 kecuali someone that i trust. i bet you know who you are :)

Tasha tak tahu ape rase 'sayang' dari keluarga. Tasha bersyukur ade bapak, emak dan abang. Tapi tasha tak perna rase sayang dari mereke. semue buat hal sendiri. mama keje. abang-abang, balik keluar rumah. baba. jangan cakap la. die tak akan balik pun. Tasha seriously tak tahu ape itu CINTA. ape itu rase kasih sayang. i cried almost every night. wondering what is the feeling of love. Semue tak ade time untuk family. kite family tak perna keluar same-same. not even Hari Raya. ade aje sala satu dari family yang tak ade.

Hari Raya, tasha cried. i cried silently tak nak sesiape tahu. tasha cepat2 masok toliet and cried, seeing my family macam gini. i might have the look. i might be pretty but what for if i'm pretty what i'm facing a horrible life? you people should be lucky. To have a family. who love and care for you. who spent time every weekends together.

i cried if people who scold me. yes i might be so called '' cry baby '' but who cares?! they dont even know how i feel. no one know how stress am i and how sad am i. not even one. i have to cry every night to release my stress and sadness.. i bet no one know about it.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Graduation prom night was AWESOME.

I got to go up to stage to do a band group and i'm the keyboard. OH MY! so embarrassing.

yet my group won! haha. I enjoy freaking much. I love the dance floor. I dance like nobody cares lagi-lagi miraa <3 haha. I feel like the night still young man! awesome people <3

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Peace be upon you..

It been so long didnt update using COMPUTER. Usually i'll be using my laptop.
nothing much to evaluate. Blog is getting boring now -.- i'm not sure if there anyone read about my life here.

Looking forward for grad/prom night. I swear i'll slap people who spoils my mood during prom night. I SWEAR OKAY?! Dare me bitch! I don't care if i'm the uglier/ pretty doing the prob night. All i care is, to have fun with my lovely friends okay?! so don't spoil my mood.

10monthsary.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Happy 10 monthsary dear! same goes to Aida n Burhan ^^

Friday night

Friday, October 28, 2011

Peace be upon you..

It been so long didnt update. Kinda busy with work. Oh well... N level da habis pah! ;)

Gong to Jakarta on 10 december 2011 to 15 Decamber 2011.

Enjoying myself taking aeroplane AGAIN! hehehehe XD

but i need to work hard to get 600 dollar for Jakarta Aeroplane, hotel and foods.

What a boring Friday night.

Boyfriend went to Johor Baharu with his Family <3

To those who gossip and jealous about me. You guys are fucking lame okay!

I am who I am. Allah created me.

I might not have a nice voice to sing but i do have a heart.

Hey, Sorry to say this.
I been hurt for these 4 years. Today, i lose my patience.
I swear one day! one day i'll be shouting and slapping your face infront of people! yes i will.
come on, Dare me.

Waah waaah. mentang-mentang secondary life da habis satu-satu tunjok korang punye teyre ah.

Bo-Layan ah!

I'm hurt :/

very sad

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

May peace be upon you..

I'm facing a lot of problem which i it is hard for me to focus on my coming N level.
All i want is to pass with flying color :') Insya Allah :')

Baba..
In 16 years living with you which our communication isn"t that close and TODAY is the day where i can see your tears drop on ur cheek Baba I thanks Allah for turning you over a new leaf. Alhamdulilah baa.. Hope it will continue after 3 years time. You yourself told me to change. Insya-Allah ba i will. :'(
Hopefully after 3 years every thing change. No more like how we, family currently facing.
Hopefully I can say I LOVE YOU to you and we, family :') I will try my very best to get a better result for my N level..

I can't promise :'(